Sunday, November 30, 2008

so much larger than life

She could be one of the most unreasonable and stubborn person because ‘everything I say is right!’. But with the endless love and care to give, she certainly makes one of the most dedicated and loving MUM in the whole wide world.

It's her big day today. Unfortunately my sister has to work and I'm also back at PJ. So we celebrated for her on Friday night at home as she insisted of cooking what we 'ordered'. But MY mum, she's never lonely. I bet she's having a great time now as I know she has 2 parties planned today!

I wish they knew how much I love them despite them being unreasonable and also me being rebellious at times.
I wish you knew how much it hurts to see the tears shed because you worry so much.
I'm sorry.. but all I need is your trust and that's all that matters to me. Remember the key pendant on my 21st birthday? No longer the 12 years old baby girl anymore okay :)

For all that you do
Watches me grow, watches me cry
At times you made me (really) angry
But when I needed comforting, you always found the time
So smile, cause I love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
 
posted by sue's at 3:21 PM, | 1 Petals of Black Roses
Thursday, November 27, 2008

New roll..

as a colleague!

The chicka trainee!

2 of the photos taken during my internship at EY.

~~*~~

Finally, something new rolling in.

I’ve moved in to my new place in PJ 2 days ago, staying at Pelangi condominium. It’s very near to The Curve, jogging distance I would say. lol. The master tenant is a friend from Malacca and the house was occupied by only him and his brother, so here I come.. to help sweeping the floor. Anyway, the place was a little messy, but not as sloppy compared to the ‘normal-typical-all-guys’ house. And only then I got to know that I’m having the master bedroom with attached toilet and air-con! Just like wanted :) Got myself a small side table for my laptop from Ikea today and the only thing lacking now is a standing lamp! Will get it when mum’s off for Malacca =p Yea my mum has been with me for the past 2 days. Because she insisted of following to view the place.. and stay… to company me because the 2 brothers aren’t around. Hmm, being a mum. The second day I woke up, the hall and kitchen turned amazingly sparkling! …. she basically cleaned the entire house before I was awake. The toilets, balcony, kitchen, even the fridge! I suppose this will last til by the end of THIS year? lol. The house is so clean now :) And what’s with mattress as sofa nowadays? Plus the guitar stand by the side of the TV, oh no.. I miss Sparta! But I miss the Spartans even more!! Since mum’s around I’m home TO teman her now instead -_- I can’t leave her alone in the house to meet anyone else, so I’ve gotta just stay at home and enjoy the internet. lol end of internet deprive. I could see the swimming pool right from the window of my room, and also from the balcony. The pool is really nice! Also I was supposed to check out the gym today, but was way too tired after a whole day of shopping spree with mum. I’ll go tomorrow. All in all, I’m pretty satisfied with the place BUT the only 1 thing I dislike is the walking distance from the carpark to the lift AND from the lift to the doorstep! It’s not far, I just… hate taking lift alone. Knowing that my job requires me to stay late for most of the time, I don’t feel secure walking alone. Lagi lagi phobia of ‘human’. I’ll just stick around until a better deal.

By the way, I’ve tried using the Bangsar way to get to office at KL Sentral and the jam was bad. But I guessed by using federal highway it’d be worse. What are the other options? I know I can’t avoid jam in any way, but at least I’m looking for the nearest or fastest way to get to KL from PJ (from the Curve to be specific). Help help!

I think I had the worst and best time last year during the two months internship in Ernst & Young (EY). We promised a better year in 2008 but it backfired! Hmph! 2009 2009 2009! Roads gonna be bumpy at this juncture for no doubt, more potholed walking alone. Unlike last December, December 1st this time I’m reporting to PricewaterhouseCooper (PwC) instead of EY. I’m excited and looking forward eagerly to start working, also to have my very own income. So much on the pending list..! But I could also foresee pretty soon I'd get so pissed off with my workload and hopefully I don't jump down from 14th floor. Or if I do, hopefully I score the pool. Hehe.. gotta just bear with whatever that comes along. New resolution for this New Year would be to complete at least a 3 year in PwC, with a CPA. Who knows I enjoy being 'tortured', heh? Well, nothing comes easily, strive for the money yo! Nonetheless, good luck to those who are still on their job hunting, especially Kelly, Styne and KNI! And Ngkokwen, whatever your decision would be, I wish to see you back home as soon as possible. As usual, best of luck and do keep me update! But you know I love surprises, so maybe you know… but not krispy kreme this time! lol. If only you could take away the kebab. =/ I believe 2009 will not be easy for many of us, we’ll make it happen! ;)

:)

So what if I bounce back slower than the others? It took a while to really let go of the past and be thankful for the tears you have caused. In the end, they make a stronger of me to gear up for better days ahead. I had more than enough break and it’s time to do what’s right to do now.

~~*~~

I’m on MSN and people have already started asking about New Year eve plan! =/ omgness, one year has passed. Lucky I’m still 18.

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
but the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Exactly a year ago today.
Also the last time I stepped into Maison.

What about this year?
:)

it was tears of disappointment
if you ever realised

 
posted by sue's at 1:29 AM, | 4 Petals of Black Roses
Friday, November 14, 2008

Home alone season N.


I enjoy being home alone. Although the silence level gets pretty scary especially at night; because it’s either the TV or radio would be turned on if my parents are around (even not at home, they have the habit of not letting the house quiet because they believe my dog listens to radio -_-), or mum will do her routine nagging la. All in all, it’s never quiet. But this week, it’s been either blasting the music or only with the clock ticking, hearing how fast every second is passing by. And after months that I’ve been praying for time to go by faster, finally.. I’m leaving Malacca. Don’t get me wrong, I love Malacca, but I’ve had enough of what-to-do-next and the where-to-go going on my mind everyday. (Come to think about it, I was also home alone when I arrived home in July. Why la.)

I really regret not knowing these people earlier causing this heavy heart to leave now. You know it’s been so long since I’ve made any friends by myself! Haha.. a lot of acquaintances and many friends are met through friends, almost all the time. (at least at this point when I’m still not working and meeting many people yet la) Suddenly I just thought there were in fact a lot more that I could have done apart from what I was doing all these while. Heck.. I’m leaving.

I went on dinner with these 2 guy friends I recently met at the gym. They decided to buy me dinner since it was my last day at the gym, and I got myself fusion burger at Wok & Pan! Later we crossed over to Nadeje for coffee and dessert. Apparently, they were the very first few to join the gym ever since it was opened, and have been constantly working out for years. One of them, damn semangat in the world; staying at Bandar Hilir, travel to work at Seremban everyday, go home after work, and go to gym from Bandar Hilir again! Oh, I’m referring to the gym at Melaka Baru, OHM. No joke, I was really amazed by the determination. Another one is already a father, damn jaga badan and scared of fat. A father.… O_O…… scared of being fat!….. I feel… damn shy man >_<>

Omg, creepy noise from upstairs, or next door. I swear I scared of human more than ghost appearing at my house. I get so paranoid each time weird noises coming from nowhere in the house. From snatch theft, break-in til robbery (shit….. just realized all kena already -_-), seriously, curse you all man. Die die die!! >=/

Anyway, had an interesting conversation with the guys at this beer garden at BB (those kopitiam old men like to chill at night to have beers and sometimes sing the karaoke to public, instead of being at home with kids and wife. And at 2am is when there come the nonsense of how ‘kau lat’ (powerful) they are and how many ‘ma chai’ (follower) they have at BB). It was hell of a fecking long talk basically regarding how usually a relationship wouldn’t work out, and even divorce. All in all, a friend claimed that all breakups, in any case, are somehow caused by the existence of a third party. I don’t quite agree with that thou. Not gonna elaborate. We also touched on the ideal age to get marry. I suddenly blurt out “chill la, still young to worry on this right!” it appears that the guys are more anxious than me! I was ‘reminded’ to still have a 5 to 6 year left, which is shorter than the guys, to hunt for the Mr. Right and get settled down. That’s… in fact a very short period. But 1 thing I will make sure I’d be earning at least a triple of what I have now by then! Mind you, at least. Hehe.

If I were a boy

Oh by the way, the Madagascar McFlurry damns orgasm! It’s about RM1.50 additional to the normal McFlurry, which costs around RM5.70 after taxed. Yes VERY expensive for McD standard ice cream. But.. =P~~

Finally, after... 2 years? lol.


:)

MASIO is teh bomb!
 
posted by sue's at 3:25 PM, | 6 Petals of Black Roses
Wednesday, November 12, 2008

just another

Happy Birthday Justyne!

**

And if you were wondering, Styne was the one pao-ed my msn and flirted with SAM YANG GAI.
 
posted by sue's at 11:45 PM, | 1 Petals of Black Roses
Tuesday, November 11, 2008

not appreciated.

SAM YANG GAIsays:

harlo!

su² says:

harlo!

SAM YANG GAIsays:

how r u?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

good or not?

su² says:

good good

su² says:

u?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

best best

su² says:

working ah?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

yaya

SAM YANG GAIsays:

boring la now

SAM YANG GAIsays:

boss not in n got no cases for me to handle

SAM YANG GAIsays:

u?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

at kl?

su² says:

no la at mlk lo

SAM YANG GAIsays:

oo...come out yum cha!

su² says:

come la

su² says:

u chia ar?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

can also...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

but need to wait after work...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

haha

su² says:

owh, what time ur work finish? i cannot wait for u leh, hungry now

SAM YANG GAIsays:

eek...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

u nvr eat lunch?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i finish at 5.30

su² says:

not yet, i home alone, so lonely

SAM YANG GAIsays:

by the time i finish u will die of hunger

SAM YANG GAIsays:

>><

SAM YANG GAIsays:

>.<

su² says:

wah so late ar, i die d lo

SAM YANG GAIsays:

ya lo...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=(

SAM YANG GAIsays:

wei....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

dun feel so lonely la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

relax...u got a lot frens around u

su² says:

but i want more than friends

SAM YANG GAIsays:

....

su² says:

how ar?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

um...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

can i ask any question to u?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

why do u say that?

su² says:

what u wana ask?

su² says:

duno la i lonely la at home, sien, u cannot blah from work early abit issit

SAM YANG GAIsays:

cannot...later kena fire...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

haha

SAM YANG GAIsays:

tahan a bit for me can?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

u go eat sumthing light first..

SAM YANG GAIsays:

then i teman u go makan anything u want

su² says:

oh...bring me somewhere nice la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

hm...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

wat u like to eat?

su² says:

erm...i like to eat sushi

su² says:

but expensive woh

SAM YANG GAIsays:

@.@

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i chia u ...dun worry

SAM YANG GAIsays:

but i dun really makan sushi...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

haha

SAM YANG GAIsays:

so i teman u

SAM YANG GAIsays:

can?

su² says:

owh....nvm la, then u bring somewhere u like to eat la

su² says:

i quite cincai also, only thing is i damm hungry

SAM YANG GAIsays:

oo...jom go amigo...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

long time nvr visit there

su² says:

why u so nice bring me go makan wan? get pay today issit?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

hahahahaha

SAM YANG GAIsays:

must get pay day oni can belanja meh?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

@.@

su² says:

how i know, usually ppl dont simply belanja one, especially when it comes to me

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i alwiz belanja girls till bankrupt

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=X

su² says:

SAM YANG GAIsays:

sue..dun think so negative

SAM YANG GAIsays:

cheer up

su² says:

chiew....always belanja gbirls, i thought i special

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=)

SAM YANG GAIsays:

ah??

SAM YANG GAIsays:

wat if i say i date u?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

later u dun want to come out with me how?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

@>@

SAM YANG GAIsays:

haha

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i alwiz get rejection

su² says:

alar u okay what, if i not ten recovering i sure consider u wan

SAM YANG GAIsays:

eek...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

relax sue...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i been in a nearly same situation like u b4

SAM YANG GAIsays:

it takes time

su² says:

so are we very alike?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

hm....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

kinda

su² says:

then....could it be destiny

SAM YANG GAIsays:

ah???

su² says:

haha joking ni la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i just can tell u 1 thing i learn through breaking up...

su² says:

eh SAM YANG GAI, seriously la, i think u shud get over that girl

su² says:

so long already

SAM YANG GAIsays:

it's no point to get emo over it for so long...

su² says:

dont emo la

su² says:

i already emo

su² says:

then u emo summore

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i got over it already...

su² says:

we together emo jump off the bridge ni la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

omg

SAM YANG GAIsays:

dun mad...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i dun want to be serial killer

SAM YANG GAIsays:

hahaha

su² says:

sometimes, i really feel like doing lo

su² says:

aih

SAM YANG GAIsays:

dun la sue...

su² says:

i just wish got someone do it wif me la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

not worth it...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i did try to cut myself...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

n when i think back...not worth it at all for her

su² says:

sigh

su² says:

thanks eh SAM YANG GAI

SAM YANG GAIsays:

so just relax...if u need anything just come to me...i will listen

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=)

su² says:

makes alot of sense to me la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

welcome

su² says:

later in return for ur kindness, i blow u la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

.....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

blow me?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=.=

su² says:

yeah u know......

SAM YANG GAIsays:

sue...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i treat u as a good fren

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i dun want any return but to see u happy

su² says:

but seriously wana repay the kindness

su² says:

i wana rip it out of ur pants and give it to u good

SAM YANG GAIsays:

.....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

shit la...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

now feeling horny

SAM YANG GAIsays:

@>2

SAM YANG GAIsays:

die la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

hahaha

su² says:

so how? will u accept or not? not all the guys layan this kinda thing

su² says:

i duno whether ur the kind to like or not la

SAM YANG GAIsays:

er....

su² says:

but if u dont want i understand....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

sue...y r u so negative?

su² says:

IM NOT

SAM YANG GAIsays:

do u know that u r precious?

su² says:

really? nobody ever appreciates me, i feel so down, so low.....

su² says:

ur the first guy to ever say this kinda thing

SAM YANG GAIsays:

.....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

thanx....

SAM YANG GAIsays:

there r people who appreciates u

SAM YANG GAIsays:

it's just that u haven't meet 1

SAM YANG GAIsays:

if given a chance i would like to date u too

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=)

su² says:

hmm......i dont mind la honestly

su² says:

i just need abit more time

SAM YANG GAIsays:

hey,so later we will meet up after my work ok?

su² says:

u can wait for me or not?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i surely can wait

su² says:

ok, thanks alot SAM YANG GAI, muaks

su² says:

dont tell anybody else ok

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i m in no hurry to love sumbody

SAM YANG GAIsays:

yea

SAM YANG GAIsays:

it's oni u n me

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=)

su² says:

okay set

SAM YANG GAIsays:

just promise me dun do stupid things

SAM YANG GAIsays:

thats good enuf

su² says:

ok ok, i wont, with u to confide in, im sure i'll be fine

SAM YANG GAIsays:

very good to hear that

SAM YANG GAIsays:

must remember i will be waiting for u

SAM YANG GAIsays:

n to recover...just take ur time...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

if u need company,can call me anytime

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i m alwiz free after work

SAM YANG GAIsays:

haha

su² says:

does that mean i can find u if i have the urge?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

yeap

SAM YANG GAIsays:

no worries

SAM YANG GAIsays:

anytime

SAM YANG GAIsays:

i give u my word

su² says:

okay, when i say the urge i mean.....like sex u know

SAM YANG GAIsays:

yea. i get it

SAM YANG GAIsays:

anything for u...

SAM YANG GAIsays:

=)

SAM YANG GAIsays:

um...

su² says:

hrmm ok, later after work u call me la ok we meet up

SAM YANG GAIsays:

u like ur guy to be active in sexual activity?

SAM YANG GAIsays:

alright

SAM YANG GAIsays:

u tahan a bit

SAM YANG GAIsays:

haha

It helped to kill an hour plus.
And of course, you know it wasn't me! XD

p/s: G*** has been replaced by SAM YANG GAI.
 
posted by sue's at 4:13 PM, | 6 Petals of Black Roses